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Author: Bikini Competitor TracyH
Hi! I'm Tracy. I'm 48 years old and I've been in the fitness industry for 32 years! I own SleekBodyMethod personal training in Saint Louis, Mo. I am a bikini athlete training for my 2015 season. I am also an IIFYM coach and certified in advanced sports nutrition. I do online training . Follow me for fitness tips, workouts and IIFYM info! http://www.sleekbodymethod.com/online.htm
Well..this week did not go as I had planned. I hit the ground running but got a terrible cold so my workouts were haulted after Tuesday. I don’t train sick. So here’s how things shaped up.
Track workouts are always part of my prep. The Cahokia Mounds is a great spot to train. It’s brutal. I made it 4 times up and down . That’s good for me. I only do these in prep. By the last week I’ll be at 10 or so trips up. It does the trick.
After the Mounds we headed to pick up our prep order for the week from Wal-Mart. It’s been really nice to be able to order our food online then run and pick it up. We actually spend less than going into the store. It’s also nice to not have to be tempted by the treats in the store. Let’s just say, it’s a good idea for our situation. Crock pot prep takes a few hours but we eat on it all week.
On Monday I had a pole lesson for my show and did some things.
I made a solid trip to the gym for legs and it felt great. Water: Made my goal!! Since I’ve not been well.. I don’t have much else to do but drink water. Food: Still on my normal macros and I’m slowly chipping away at the extra fluff. Sleep: Ugh.. I can’t breathe so no. Posing: I did pose this week! I’m working on holding my poses while I’m in between sets.
I am hoping that I feel better this week. I have a photo shoot on Monday and some rehearsals this week. I just don’t have time to be sick!! I hope you have a great week.
I actually started prep after Thanksgiving last year. I took one day off for Christmas. I’ve been perfect on my macros every day. That sounds braggy. I don’t mean it to be, just that I felt so good and calm it isn’t hard. I have a lot of food. A LOT. I haven’t cut my macros yet at all since I started 11 weeks ago. I always do about a 20 week prep. I wasn’t sure how progress would be with all the hormone issues I’m having. I think I had a good week.
I started taking good pics about a month ago. I’m not sure why I waited. But in anycase.. here are the comparisons. I told you, this blog is the reality, not the instagram fairy tale. I have to chip away at every bit of progress.
Food this week was great. I still have taco salad for lunch. I’ve been doing lots of raw veggies and dip. I use cottage cheese for the dip though. We have our prep food down to a science. We can order from Wal-mart’s app and they bring it right out to the car!
Valentines: We did a special meal. I have to say that I should not have tried to go into the grocery store on Valentines Day. All the pink cookies and cakes were really talking to me. I held back macros for dinner so I was hungry! NOOOOO.. that’s not the time to go shopping.
In prep, I try to have a steak or red meat once in while. I don’t really like it except for burgers. I freaking love burgers. We bought lean, grass fed filet and baked potatoes. We made Spinach Salad too. My goal was to have 2 Smore’s. I bought the right Graham crackers. The ones with the cinnamon sugar on them.
The steak, I could not even eat it. I just can’t even get it down. The graham crackers were like cardboard. I haven’t eaten those for ever so I guess they are different. GROSS. I threw those in the trash. Never mind.
Posing: Practicing every single day. My back is on fire!! I’m hoping it will get better and better. It’s really hard.
Water: UGH!! Terrible. I need to get it together. I hate it so bad! I’m going to come back next week having hit my water goals. Committed.
Sleep: I had 3 great nights. I felt like a different human! It was freaking amazing. The rest were pretty bad. I know if I had better sleep overall, I’d be doing better on this project.
I have all my wardrobe for both shows!! My wings are coming this week, I’m told. I love my suits that were graciously sent to me by one of my team mates! ❤
Workouts: Never any issues. I have a lot of pole this week. I’m getting close on my show and need to step up my practice time.
Thoughts: A few times this week, I looked at myself in the mirror with disdain and said “why are you even trying this?” I was able to reset my thoughts and ground myself. This is MY project. It’s about what I can accomplish and I deserve to be on stage just as much as anyone. I am working really hard and focused. But I’m enjoying this process. I like documenting the journey so I can learn!!
I bought this up in one of my other blogs, but having done so much counseling, I don’t even crave things like I used to. I can’t explain that freedom and the relief. Had I not had all the trauma, I’d never have been someone who struggled so hard with eating disorders and using food to cope. But it is what it is.
In prep, I have been able to use it as a coping mechanism and not deal with my issues. It’s a good fit for someone like me and not in a good way. When I hit the wall in 2017 after my last show, I took that time to get my mental health together. It’s been horrible. I’m not going to lie. Horrible.
All that being said, is just to say, this blog goes all the way back to 2014 preps. I can see growth. I hope that in the years to come I can read back on these posts and see even more growth!!
I had a great week. I got all my workouts in. I felt like I got some changes this week. My food was on point. . My pics today are actually in a show suit. My last two suits were not suitable for this show. The blue one from last week was a suit I wore in 2015 and it didn’t fit me until show week! It’s much too big now. This beautiful silver suit is stage tiny.
Water is always really hard for me. I get it. I feel much better when I drink it that is for sure. It is much better but not 100 percent. Still a goal for this week to get a better handle on that
Sleep is terrible. Do you sleep well? I have hot flashes all night and I’m awake for hours in the middle of the night. I am doing everything I can in regards to ‘remedies’ for menopause symptoms. I have had my food really spot on and I am not eating sugary things. I don’t notice that it makes it worse but I’ve read some people say it does.
I’m not going to food shame sugar or call it the devil. This prep, I’m not craving or looking for it. I have had a lot of counseling and dealing with stuff has really changed my desire for ‘comfort’ foods. I’m really happy with my food and it’s lovely. I probably get sucrose in a few items that I’m eating but it’s not a big deal. I love Powerful Oats and I’m sure it has a little.
My point is.. I’m eating really well, I haven’t dropped macros and I’m getting all my nutrition needs met. I just can’t sleep! I know that has some effect on my results too.
FOOD! I have to thank the mister who is on the crock pots! It’s too cold to grill so we’ve been doing a lot of crock pot meals. My favorite still is lean turkey meat with taco seasoning. I have a bunch of containers of cut up things like tomatoes and onions. I make taco salad for lunch. We are doing a lot of cut up veggies and dip. Cottage cheese and dip mix. Boom. I also eat baked chicken thighs. So good. I just adjust my fat for the day . Easy peasy lemon squeezy.
My friend Kelsey told me about a new Starbucks drink. Cold Brew with a splash of oatmilk and SF cinnamon syrup. It’s the Kelsey Oatmeal Cookie.
POSING I met with Belinda and got my presentation done. I’m practicing everyday.
On Saturday, I hurt my knee doing the sled so that made me really bummed. So I’m going to have to work around some things while this heals. Good grief. I’m always hurt in prep.
Today I’m posing with my team mate , Julie so I will have some fun pics from that. So far, I’m enjoying this process a lot. I am resisting the urge to compare my body with others. I am here for this lesson, journey and to learn some really good things about prepping in menopause. I’m feeling strong so I’m excited to see what I can accomplish this week.
Chip it away, a little at a time.. but it’s all good. Let’s do something great this week!
First of all.. Thank gawd, January is finally over: long ass month. I had a great week. I only had one day when I struggled on my food. I hit all my workouts, rest days. Sleep was terrible though.
I found out this week I can’t get my green suit altered. So I have some other suits to work with. This is one from 2015. I think it will be too big come show day. It works for now.
This week I performed again for the Side Show Menagerie at the Crack Fox. I had some extra pole practices. It went really well. I don’t have any more shows until mOBSCENE 3.21. I am going to be in the gym doing the thing.
I haven’t dropped any macros yet. There are a lot of crock pots going at this house. I’m loving turkey taco salads for lunch these days. Last night, I had protein cookie dough for dinner. I actually like this prep best of all I’ve done so far.
This weeks goals are water.. ugh.. I hate water. I ‘m doing good but it could be better.
Posing: I pose with Belinda today. I will update with screen shots. NGA posing is a bit like my NANBF I did in 2013/14 but I need so much help. I really want to be incredible at my presentation.
The other goals are to just keep working and chipping away.
Getting stage lean for me takes a long time and my legs are the last to improve. I’m just focusing in on the work.
Ahh.. 13 weeks to stage and just 8 weeks until my pole show, mOBSCENE! I started with my check in pics. I’m doing my own prep but I have two amazing friends/fellow coaches who are also giving me feed back. I also love the idea of accountability.
My journey is a bit different this time. It’s been since 2017 since I’ve prepped for stage. That last show I did messed my head up so bad. I had to take time off. I had done 2 preps in 1 year. My body was in bad shape.
I have some real regrets about how my mental state suffered from my last show. 😦 I needed to step away.
Shortly after that I began counseling and have worked really hard these last 2 plus years to deal with my CPTSD. It has been excruciating. I have a long way to go, but I want to say that I’m in a far better place than I was in my last prep.
I’m really liking doing this prep. I feel like I’m doing it for me and I have a nice, calm peace about it. I don’t have any trepidation about saying any of this out loud. I believe we need to be healthy mentally as well as physically.
My posing coach, Belinda is ready to help me become next level. I’m really excited to work with her. She has taken many of my team to victories. I’m setting up posing sessions with my friends and we are ready to make this project a success.
I’d like to shout out my show. NGA Heart of America! They are very nice humans!! I’m really excited to do this show!!
Ah.. this past weekend, I performed in the STL POLE SHOW! I felt amazing!! Here are a few shots!!
I mostly write this blog for myself. I dig around and re learn things or get motivated by my past endeavors. I actually started this blog to be accountable to myself and it helps me stay focused on my goals. I doubt anyone will read this post and it’s fine!! Here’s the prep2020 update!
My show is 10 weeks out. I want to be clear, that my March 21 show is mOBSCENE which is a pole burlesque show I am producing.
It’s a big deal for me and I am performing too. I have so many heavy hitters in this show. The cast list is some of the best in the performing community. I decided to create a look for this show and that’s what I’m doing.
So far.. I’m doing great. I’m feeling tighter. I did great all the way through the holidays. I didn’t blow my plan up. I actually did advanced macros so it was easy. I’m very calm. My progress in 4 weeks is great.
I decided that if the planets align, I’ll finish my prep for the next 4 weeks past mOBSCENE and to the NGA show in Peoria. I’m planning on it, but we will see. That probably sounds lazy to some people. I’m working through some menopause (ugh) hormone issues so I’m not sure how prepping will be in the last weeks. This is new territory. But it’s exciting to have that goal.
I have many pole shows this year and many photo shoots too. This all aligns with my goals.
Food: I’m actually keeping my macros high. I haven’t even dropped my macros. What I have done is really tidied them up. I’m trying different food combinations and looking at ingredients to see how they affect my hormones and belly fat. Yeah.. I said it.
I’ve been through over 2 years of some intense trauma work and my cortisol was through the roof. I am finally feeling better.
I’m not mad either way about what happens in that April show. Health is my priority but also, listening to my body.
I am not using a scale either.
I like to prep myself because I can learn more and help my clients too. I’m up for this experience but I am not using prep as a coping mechanism. I’m going to do this project with peace and see where I end up.
I haven’t prepped really since 2017. I took years off from my last competition to recover mentally and have been working on my mental health. Lots of self care there.
So my goals for 2020 are to prep for a show I am producing in March! It’s not a body building show but I’m going to come in looking strong. I am treating this prep as I do my bikini competition shows. It’s mental for me.
I’m excited to be back on prep!
I’m 54 now and I’m also exploring food and hormones and going to working hard to figure out how to deal with all these changes in my body. No one wants to discuss how hormones effect women and we are sort of the forgotten humans when it comes to fitness. Honestly, the midsection is really hard for many of us, and add peri-menopause or Menopause.. ugh. So I’m going to focus there.
I have lots of shows and photo shoots on deck for 2020 so I’m super focused. I’m actually feeling really good! We are taking our team to the NGA Show in April and many of us are prepping together so we will all have some camaraderie.
I wish you success with your journey!!! Let’s do this!!
In our pole community, almost daily there is a post like this:
“My boyfriend/husband/partner doesn’t like me pole dancing. He said I’m a whore. He tells me I’m not very good. He tells me I’m dancing around the pole like a slut. He won’t let me go to class. He won’t let me post my videos to my insta feed when I only do it so I can share my successes. He says I’m going to be a prostitute now. He said he doesn’t want anyone looking at me dancing. ..” ON AND ON AND ON AND ON..
Every one of the threads follows with some women saying:
“Try to explain to him, tell him we have to show skin for grip. Tell him you feel happy when you dance. Tell him, we all share videos so we learn. Tell him you won’t dance exotic or wear heels.. Help him understand. He’s just insecure. Help him feel secure.. help him. help him help him…”
STOP IT. We need to stop it now.
We are grown women with autonomy over our bodies and we can make choices for our selves based on what makes us happy. It’s not our job to ‘explain’ ourselves.
Any human, for any reason who chooses their own perceptions over their partners happiness is TOXIC. It’s not about them. In fact, we don’t have to convince them it’s a ‘good thing’ because we know dancing is a great thing. It’s not up to anyone else!
And don’t be fooled.. this happens in my bikini/body building community too.
We have had clients husbands slut shame them on show day. It’s unreal!
This is not a dancing or sport issue.. it’s first of all a control issue and secondly an issue where grown women are taking up less space and encouraging each other to be accommodating to men /partners perceptions.
“But.. you don’t understand my relationship…”
Yeah.. I do. It’s toxic. When your partner degrades you, shames you and tries to control you, it’s their issue. They are abusive and toxic. The opposite of healthy. People who love you, care about you want you to be happy not sad and lacking self esteem.
In 2013 I competed and then set on a course to build my glutes.
In 2015 I dug out a pair of my old ‘boyfriend’ style jeans and they wouldn’t go over my thighs. I took to the bed. Crying. Rob said something like.. “we worked on this with food, you trained hard to build your glutes” Stating the obvious.. didn’t matter. I was broken in pieces. Brains are a thing that sometimes do us dirty.
If those jeans would have fit.. then I would have not achieved my goal. My plan would have been “off”.
I have lost many competitors from PANTS. They quit when their work pants don’t fit. They don’t want to invest in more work pants. They don’t like going up a size in pants.
They want to win in this sport but remain the same. We can’t remain the same. We shouldn’t. We all should be moving forward. The industry joke is ‘buy leggings”. I actually only own leggings or jeggings. I don’t even try on denim so my head doesn’t explode. We get used to being thrilled when we go down a jeans size not up. So…
These are things that we all do.. we put things in our head that are measures of failure. If the scale says this number, I’m trash. If the scale says this number.. I’m winning. It’s made up. 😭
My pants issues are just part of the issue I have with my body and perception of what is optimal.
As our body changes, it’s not a straight shot down to ‘skinny’ because we don’t live like that. We are eating, lifting and creating a physique that WE want. It’s not linear. We have to eat to grow and we have to build what we want. We won’t give up because pants told us we aren’t good enough. ❤ Pants are not in charge. Www.sleekbodyonline.com